A BloG Of SoRRows

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

seems like its dayz seems i had updated my blog.. lately things have been affecting my mood.. not feeling quite well now.. hope i dun fall sick at this point of time.. its a crucial point now as it will decide whr i would go next year.. hopefully able to get into the class i wanna get in.. *pray hard* lately things have been goin on around me.. lots and lots.. but some r affecting me as much.. unable to express my self much lately.. some things is happening la.. haiz..lately seems like i dun behave like the normal me.. doin some stuff tat i would get a shock my self.. cannot control my self much.. so ppl sorry if i have affect u.. quite worried about my grandma.. but she is alright at the moment.. i hope she can get well real soon.. she had been admitted to this hospital for almost 2 week le.. my mum hab been travelling back and forth from there.. can see she is quite tired.. i will try my best to do things by my self so tat i can help her abit la.. lately there is this person tat talk lots about life.. i normally do tat also.. but this time this person is more experience than me.. and also able to analyze about life better than me.. tat is of course as i am still young but wat he say is very true able to talk much about life and how and wat is the aimz of a personz life and wat expect about a life and many more.. if only i could find a aim for my life it would be easier for me.. haiz.. thinkin about life.. my life is a failure.. can't even meet the standard tat my parent had set haiz.. some time i feel like crying seeing my life is such a failure but wat i know is i must try hard to meet the expect of my parent so tat all their hard work will not go down the drain lo.. crapping much should stop here le wor.. night ppl..

| a simple day. 12:36 AM
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Saturday, September 17, 2005

today dam bored lolz.. nothin much to do lei.. hai~ only homework to do lolz.. so anyway wake up at arond 11 plus lo.. haha real piggy lata goin to take a nap again yeah.. lolz.. the best time of the day is to take a nap haha.. haiz.. lately keep habin MS lolz.. the reason y is real easy tat is dun tell u.. lolz.. haiz.. anyway its dam sianz sianz de day lo.. yesterday mummy did not go down to hospital cos lots of ppl were there today she is goin down.. duno if i need to go down ma.. haiz.. hope she get well real real soon.. so heart aching to see her hands full of bruise.. haiz.. but anyway.. lata MAYBE goin to do homework.. lolz.. like i say its a maybe haha.. okie dun update le.. no body is goin to read it anyway lolz.. haha.. i think hor it time to ..................................................................................... TAKE A NAP MUAHAHA~ *ding ding ding*

| a simple day. 2:09 PM
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Thursday, September 15, 2005

just got back from the hospital.. seems like fear is all over me.. when i just reach the hospital my grandma is sleeping.. then my mum wake her up.. to eat the bird nest tat she has prepare for her.. she wake up and seems tired had quite a hard time sitting up.. as she wants to eat the bird nest tat is her favourite.. she loves bird nest.. no matter how sick she is she can finish a bowl of bird nest.. like usual she had finish all her bird nest.. when maid is feeding her bird nest she did not open her eye.. she just eat.. as the spoon is deliver to her mouth.. after finishing she had lie down on the bed again.. but feeling like her chest is very tight.. so the maid went to call for the nurse.. she came over to check on my grandma after checking she say everything is alright.. she say " maybe becos she had just finish her meal dun let her lie down straightly" then was like ok.. we went off.. the moment when we r stepping out the granny opposite my grandma's bed had call for my mum.. she tell's her tat last night my grandma is calling like some thing is taking her away.. she is calling for help..she says tat her calling is very weird and scary and call us to take good care of her.. from tat moment onwards fear and worried is the only thing i can feel.. duno why.. from the moment she eat her medicine i feel kind of weird.. seems like tear's is flowing out.. but after the granny opposite my grandma's bed had talk to my mum and uncle.. i feel fear and worry.. duno wat is happening.. all the thing i can think of is " granny u must hold on dun give up as lots of us will be praying for u" every1 is now worried afraid tat she might leave us any min.. ah~ i duno la.. my mind is all confused.. all i can do now is *pray*

| a simple day. 8:44 PM
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Wednesday, September 14, 2005

today went to sch.. got 4 period of d&t lo.. then i do a set of D&T paper lo.. very siaNZ..cos nothin to do wat lolz.. hm.. today very guai keep doin homework.. then listen to mp3 some 1 come to my table make noise and keep moving my table get dam piss off man.. she suck lolz.. i think i suck too.. but anyway.. i am dam tired.. feel like i am breaking down too much of stress le.. study study.. nagging.. and N lvl all these is making me mad.. help~ haiz.. but anyway.. quite tired lately.. i tend to slp late and wake up early.. lolz.. but quite energetic maybe cos i am old le.. no need too much slp lolz.. but tend to take long nap haha.. nap i love this time muahaha.. anywaymy life was like no exam is goin on i should be studying.. but i am goin mad!! stress ar.. stress untill all the dam pimple all pop up le.. lolz.. am i habing mood swing??? haiz... ah~ i duno la.. haiyo.. help help help~

| a simple day. 10:25 PM
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Sunday, September 11, 2005

okie.. i am here to update again.. hmm actually i got nothin to update la.. so i just come here to type for fun de la.. okie.. today i had order the delivery service for mac de.. ordered a extra value meal of big mac and an apple pie. i had use aorund 4 hr to finish all these cool huh?? ok then i am sitting infront of the com typing again lo.. so its like tat lo.. ok end my entry here.. lolz.. really nothin to type le la.. just read this for fun.. haha.. kk take care and god bless u the ppl who is reading.. wow.. i am typing this kind of thing lolz...

| a simple day. 3:29 PM
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Friday, September 09, 2005

*ding ding* time to update lo.. i had quite a slp today la.. lolz.. in the afternoon la.. yesterday slp at 1am like tat then today wake up at 6am like tat *sob* then bath all tat la.. then reach pasir ris at around 9 la.. then when we reach there stay there for a while a bus come write pulau tekong so we ride tat bus go to the jetty lo.. then the boat is dam shaky before it had start.. the boat make untill i dizzy dizzy la.. the boat trip is around 10 min lo.. now i am typing feel like i am on the boat lolz.. all shaky.. i so lao ya de.. lolz.. anyway.. we were separated from my bro when we reach there he had to follow the rest of the ppl.. then we follow other family members and friendz lo.. they show us around wat is in the *alibaba bag* its a nick cos in tat bag tat they were given they have lots of thing inside.. all kindz of thing.. like food too brush all tat la.. it will accompany them through their army life.. the bag was good lo.. know got wheel de.. last time de dun hab lolz.. so was like wow.. they had lotz of extra thing tat is added this year how lucky of him.. went to the room they r goin to slp in not bad lei.. but no air con of course.. lolz.. and after tat they brought us down to show us around like the lecture room whr hey study lo.. then they bring us down to the place whr all the thing they r giben is shown to us .. after tat weny to the canteen to copy the company all tat la.. the no. i was told to go copy who know later when we go to the auditorium hall we were shown video then the ppl incharge of the place come talk he seems like the P.S de judges fang zhong hua lolz.. dam funny then after tat saw my bro he come with us to the canteen whr food is serve haiz.. saw a guy whr his mum help him take food i was like wat the hell hey u r in the camp.. even untill now u need ur mum help u take food.. y dun u later dun let ur mum go home.. let her join u in the camp la.. dam mummy de boy boy lo... lolz.. the food proportion there is dam huge.. maybe cos they exercise alot la.. so they eat alot also.. the food not bad i gib ***/***** lolz.. quite high le hor.. then my kor bring us to the jetty tat is whr we bid farwell to him.. poor kor kor.. must jia you.. see u 2 weeks lata la.. hehex.. they need to make 2 promise in the auditorium.. first thing must call is home tonight when they got time.. 2nd they need to go home the first thing they leave camp lolz.. other wise the parent can call to the company to complaint.. poor them.. hehex.. its a long entry cos lots happen today la.. reach home around 3 dizzy so went to slp slp lo..

| a simple day. 8:15 PM
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Tuesday, September 06, 2005

haiz.. haiz.. haiz.. tat is all i can say.. duno y but all i can say is haiz... maybe cos of my exam lo.. i duno wat the hell is happening to me i was like lost when the paper start.. maybe i suck to core lei.. haiz.. i duno wat is happening la.. but for now i only know tat i must study harder liao.. cos my ss result would be quite bad.. this morning i had a very strong stomachach lolz... pain untill i eat breakfast also pain haiz.. not cos i too stress cos my stomach is habing a hard time to diguest all the food i eat.. as i had a weak stomach lo.. so diguesting food is pain for me lately only la.. maybe when i sick i did not eat much food then now i eat too much le.. my stomach cannot take it.. haiz.. but anyway.. today my entry will be full of haiz.. cos i am really bothered about my exam la.. ppl tat is stress try not to read my blog.. cos i am very stress it would affect ur mood too.. feel like crying haiz..

| a simple day. 10:11 PM
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Monday, September 05, 2005

i am here to blog again.. but anyway i should be studying now la.. but duno y i am stick to the com haha.. just now i had my N lvl chinese quite an ok paper.. dun think will score an a1 haiz.. cos lately my standard drop alot lo..duno wat is happening man..then after the paper went to kfc had my lunch then thank you cailing for passing me the superstar de paper ;p *3 cheers to cailing* yeah~ hehex.. then after tat went for a small walk at point de secound floor then went home.. check my com and talk to my mum for a while and go for a nap *clapz* the favourite time of the day is to hab a nap... ok i am indeed lazy haha.. today not much of stuff is happening.. but for sure i am grounded for 1 month so this month will not be goin out.. i only have $20 for 2 weekz tat means i had $10 for a week and means $2 for a day.. so pathetic man.. haha but at least i am not goin out for this month so i will nt be spending much money except in sch la.. haha hope i can hab a peaceful life untill my N lvl endz la.. hehex.. shouldn't i be studying?? haha.. maybe lata.. but the lata neber end 1.. at least just flip through the book haha.. but my eye is nt lookin on the book but on the tv muahaha.. grandma has admitted into the hospital again.. wonder if she is alright la.. *pray hard* she will be ok de.. haiz.. stop here le.. my hand tired liao..

| a simple day. 6:38 PM
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Saturday, September 03, 2005

okie its 1.14am now and i am eating McDonal now.. lolz.. so weird right.. my bro had order the delivery thing la.. lolz.. he is searching web for the no. haha.. then nothin to do.. so i had also order a mac chicken lo.. haha.. today eat lots of junk food.. i went down t check out if the superstar newspaper is on sales or not.. then its not la.. so i went to buy some chocolate and tibitz la.. then i finish it while i am watching tv.. haha.. today really i am eating non stop lo.. haha.. seems like i had not eatin for a long time.. today goin to hab tution at 2pm eric comin over la.. i think should hab physic tuition lo.. my math still ok for now.. physic is the 1 tat i am worry about lo.. ok i had just open up.. there is lots of vege inside haha.. wonder if i finish my delicious burger wat will happen lolz.. eating supperlately.. but anyway.. back to say.. i had finish fliping 2 chi yu shou ce and 1 sustaining development de paper la.. canot rmb anything haha.. so cham.. wasting my time hor.. tmr got chinese and the day after tmr is listening for chinese and also SS exam ah~ so scared but not in the mood to study lolz.. wat if i flunk?? *touch wood* but hope tat i dun get sick.. cos i eat lots of junk food today~ ok end here must eat my burger liao ;p

| a simple day. 1:21 AM
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Friday, September 02, 2005

ok.. now i can start to blog after a long day of sleeping and waking up lolz.. yesterday went over to suntec to take a bus to indoor and who knows we r lost lolz.. then we finally found the bus stop la.. then we take a bus ride to there lo.. when we reach there saw bu 3 bu 4 de gang lolz.. then we join them lo.. then esther kelly then saw cailing and woon cheng comin up the staires as we r sitting there haha.. then then i shout for cailing lolz.. quite a fun time we hab at upstair shout for many ppl.. and also untill the back shouting who r u.. cos we cannot see who is the guest tat is comin out from the car lolz.. shout for many ppl. like jun yang,ah nel,sugie,kelly and jj shout untill tired lolz.. but when they mention sugie we all shout like hell.. the zhou chong qing always forget him de.. say wang jian fu shuai is right.. cos he rmb sugie at least but they all forget darryl lei.. their fanz must be sad haiz.. btw they r just sitting right behind us..i enjoy many part of the show.. but not the ending as some 1 had won lolz.. u shout know who la.. haha.. but kelly did not win i dun feel sad but quite happy for her.. as i wan her to join universal also.. haha.. ok i am very bad.. but tat company is better than play music lo.. to say the truth.. so she is the final winner to us la.. ok PROJECT SUPERSTAR had come to an end and this means studies must start le..but still not in the mood la.. try to force my self to study lo.. wat to do N lvl comin le.. die die also must study so.. like tat lo.. haiz.. hope my result would be better than my prelim as i did quiet badly this time.. due to i am sick or i am lazy la.. maybe becos i am stupid.. ok i shall end here seems like today its a long entry..

| a simple day. 7:38 PM
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